I am a nurse anesthetist. I was tortured by an MD/exboyfriend at Northwestern hospital with contrast dye in 1999. I had a husband and 2 preschoolers at home at the time. The symptom lasted 2 months. Since then, I am unable to keep food down or sleep without medication.
As a nurse anesthetist, I also discovered a medical error in 2001 that prevented surgeons from removing turbinates in patients with severe disease. Diseases of the airway which changes the way blood flows. Related conditions include Alzheimer’s, autism and “mental illness”. There are also patients who have more tolerable symptoms like mine, such as extreme fatigue and chronic upper respiratory infections. My disease came from enlarged turbinates and with commonly prescribed medications like Afrin, beta blockers, contrast dye and antidepressants, it was extremely likely that I would experience heart failure. The kind that tortures. All preventable.
Since discovering that error, I have been ambushed. Firstly, anesthesiologists ended my career, violating my HIPAA on several occasions. For example, I confronted my medical professional during an office visit about their backwards physiology in January of 2001. That visit was HIPAA protected. But that didn’t stop the anesthesiologists from announcing it to whomever they liked, especially my potential future employers. I had no protection. It seems that my patients had no protection either. MDs had no problem putting patients in harm’s way to get to me.
From 1999 to January 2001, while working at the local hospital, I questioned why surgeons were not fixing this turbinate problem. They thought it was obvious. It took me over a year to decode their backwards physiology. In addition, from 1999 to 2001, there was 1 patient who reported blindness after I delivered his anesthetic. Luckily the attorney was astute and with the help of a hidden camera, established that the patient could see normally. Another patient took wood alcohol prior to his anesthetic with me which could have caused blindness. Again luckily, it was found on a toxicology screen. The patient was fine. But draw your own conclusions.
Even though turbinates can be removed safely since January 2001, I had mine removed in 2003 in another city. The local surgeon abandoned my care along with other surgeons in his practice in 2001. It was another test of my resolve.
I am certain that I have been surveilled on a daily basis by those who are able to do so. I have been systematically provoked making it clear to me that whoever is doing it wants me out of the picture. Every day since 2001, I see license plate messages that at first seemed random. Messages that would begin with DYE, DUY, DYU, DYD. It would happen multiple times a day. Sometimes I would see dates such as AUG 4, 10/31/09, 9 7, and other messages that could be construed as dates. Dates that were meant to give me false hope for finally getting answers to so many questions that I had and getting patients the help they needed. The date would come and go, all meant to play mind games and was often followed by a message like DLE or DNY. There has also been songs on the radio that I felt were meant just for me. A candle in the wind, party like it’s 1999, there will be peace when you are gone, this gun’s for hire. I could just turn off the radio but it would follow me to grocery stores and restaurants. I attended a torture symposium in 2018 in Chicago. Even after my experiences in 1999 in Chicago, I was motivated to share my story to this group of torture experts. I left alone early on a weekday and at the last moment I decided to take my husband’s car instead since it was newer. When I arrived back home the next day, and we exchanged cars, I realized the low tire pressure light was on. A tire was almost flat. I brought it into a shop where they discovered a hole in the tire. No nail. Just a hole. And in addition, over time, it hasn’t been unusual for me to have other close calls on the road which are also suspect.
I have several small notebooks in my car filled with evidence of subliminal messages. And it is a fraction of what I’ve experienced because writing while driving can be a challenge.
In October of 2020, I was fed up one day with the stalking. License plate ECT2099. ECT is shock therapy for depressed patients and the 99 was the year I was tortured. I took pictures of the car and headed to the local police station. I filled out a lengthy report highlighting the torture in 1999 and subsequent harassment and subliminal messages. It was evident that these were also HIPAA violations always wondering if local MDs were involved. I even allowed the officer to speak with my psychiatrist thinking that he would shed light on this situation. The officer identified me as “insane” on his report and went on his way. It seems my MD took it as another opportunity to provoke me. I didn’t care. I wanted a paper trail.
Late in 2020, JTD 599 or some other rendition of DJT showed up. On a flashy lit up license plate. It’s not the first time a president would celebrate my torture and unfortunately it will not be the last. Countless examples.
Obviously, I have had no help from medical professionals. Because of the PTSD, unfortunately I need to see a psychiatrist. They are the professionals who are best at provocation which makes me very concerned for others with this diagnosis. I have learned to only give as little information as possible during my visits. I can rely on self-talk better than their “expertise”. I know from experience that the antidepressants they routinely prescribe can worsen symptoms of heart failure and torture these vulnerable patients. And in case you think there is no urgency to this, their antidepressants can cause psychosis in vulnerable patients. Psychiatrists have a lot at stake.
This blog is for the patients who have been dismissed, provoked, isolated, mocked, misdiagnosed and systematically misunderstood. The suffering can stop. It just takes a sinus CAT scan to screen for this before MDs order their routine medication because once the patient is tortured, it’s already too late. They’ll be on medications for life. And my heart goes out to the families who have lost loved ones. The ones who just couldn’t tolerate the abuse any longer. Don’t see the evidence? Tortured patients generally are not on social media. Lucky for you, I am.
I have also had no help from nurses in the family who must have an agenda. Again, after some provocative phone calls and actions, in 2011, it seemed to go from bad to worse. Afterwards, coincidentally, the adversaries in my life at the time seemed to be doing especially well with second homes and promotions, expensive vacations. I had been unemployed for several years and it felt defeating until I realized that they were vicious acts. That people in charge could listen to every phone call and what was going on in my household. I’ve never felt so vulnerable.
I reached out to DOJ attorneys in 2019, 2021 and just recently February 2025 to report torture. In 2019 and 2021, they did not treat torture as criminal and directed my letter to the Health and Human Services. In February, I specifically directed my letters to 3 DOJ/HRSP attorneys, Hope Olds, Teresa McHenry and Toni Bacon. I have yet to hear from them. I sent the letters USPS/restricted delivery and the receiving illegible signatures were the same for 2 of the addresses of course leaving my wondering how deep the corruption is. All to provoke me. Obviously, since I have no fourth amendment rights, DC obviously knew the letters were on their way. My phone has been hacked. In 2024, there was a car right in front of me with a bumper sticker, DUE PROCESS DENIED. I couldn’t agree more.
How have I survived this ordeal? Because I’m motivated to help patients get screened and treated for this arcane disease. I have also had my faith. I wrote a book called To Those Who Knew which chronicles my life story and family history down this path but it is also a describes my faith along the way. It is available on Amazon. There is another book called Those Who Knew who is written by a different author and is a different book.
God is still good. This is a DC issue.
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